I'm alone. I'm depressed, I've never felt so alone in my life, perhaps I have always been this way, but it hasn't hit home in this way before. I literally have no one to reach out to, no one who knows me history is any longer in me life. I have left my friends, and leading somewhat of a lonely life. I wish my friends cared more, but its turns out we were never really friends to begin with. 10 years of that, how else am I supposed to feel right now.

I'm sorry to my self, for ignoring myself so much, my own needs and feelings. I'm sorry for the way I have treated myself. I feel so alone in this world. And it feels like there is nothing in this world that can rid me of this loneliness I feel.